Thursday, February 26, 2009

Scatterbrain

I don't think I write enough these days, at least not as much as I used to. My main problem is finding the adequate time to do it. Often, throughout the day, I would have things to write about, but never end up getting to them. I've told myself time and again to jot some ideas down at the very least, and save them for later elaboration. When I do have time however, namely downtime, I end up indulging in the momentary freedom and completely forget that I had materials to write about, and should I remember that I did have things to write about... I get too bogged down to write about them. It becomes a chore if I have to force myself to do it.

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Today was a slow day at my office. My project is pending approvals and cannot proceed without client's input. So it's the waiting game. During this "down time" today I browsed all the movie trailers on the Quicktime site. It's been awhile since I've seen a good movie at the theaters. I completely missed the Slumdog Millionaire bangwagon and will have to catch it on DVD some time later. I'm pretty excited about some of the films that are coming out, there are some pretty awesome looking flicks upcoming. Here's a list of what I'm planning on seeing:
And some notables:
I will most likely not able to see all of them obviously. I'd be short several hundred dollars. But I will try to catch as many of these as possible.

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What I'm loving lately. Asian American film makers slowly making their way into mainstream. This one in particular has been gaining some popularity at least in the online community. And soon, hopefully, we'll be seeing more work from him. I'd love to see what he can do with feature films.




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Tuesday, February 24, 2009

my work space and inspiration

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really great video. directed by the singer himself Oren Lavie

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Monday, February 16, 2009

Sappy Entry or What I Ate This Weekend.

Mony came up on Thursday night for Valentine's weekend so we can have an extra day together. It was nice having him for another night. I know lots of people have it worse, and I should be thankful I even have someone, but I still don't think I see him enough. That's just me being selfish I suppose, but he would agree that we both want to see each other more, and that's just the nature of the things.

We both decided to not do anything too special because we're both trying to save money for our Thailand trip some time in April or May. And even so, we both should be saving our money anyway, considering the amount of flights we've been making back and forth to see one another. And so instead of buying gifts for each other, we just relished the fact that we can see each other at all. But that isn't to say we didn't make the days together special.

Thursday night, after I picked him up from the airport, we went to a small Japanese sushi place down the street from my apartment. I like the fact that it's real Japanese operated and owned. The menu was simple, sushi and sashimi along with some cooked fish dishes. Nothing fried, grilled, no ramen, none of your typical Americanized Japanese joints. So nothing glazed on teriyaki, or dunked in tempura. The prices were a few dollars per item over my usual range, but when it comes to food, I love being adventurous, so price was of no matter. The flavors were definitely there, but portions were small (this is probably closer to Japanese portions than what Americans are used to anyhow), some were definitely more experimental, but I give them props for being creative. This restaurant definitely is meant for the locals with acquired tastes. Not the best I've had, but I would give it another chance.

I had work Friday, so I left the house keys and the rental to Mony. He had lunch with some ex-colleagues and errands to run. The feeling of knowing he's here, locally, readily available to me, is comforting. That I can go home and see him there, that he can come pick me up after work, makes me feel warm. He drove by after I left work and headed home together. There's a sense of belonging in the act of going home with someone. Not something people think about or lament over, but it puts a smile on my face to be able to do that. I just hope we can do that soon, for good.

I wanted to take him to another local joint near my apartment that night, since there are so many good eats and known places in the foodie world around my place. No reservations were necessary for Park Chow, so we just walked right up. The restaurant itself was situated in what used to be a residential house with wooden panel floors and molding on the walls and ceiling still intact. The upper level was the roof deck converted into an extra floor by a retractable fitted roof awning. Heat lamps kept the upstairs nice and cozy, and in the front nook, there was a fireplace that we sat near. The vibe was homey, easy-going, and casual. The clientele ranged from families to intimate lovers, a rather mixed group. I've had their food before at another one of their four restaurants in the San Francisco area and can vouch for their quality. So I ordered the dish I knew I personally loved: Slow stewed beef short ribs with mashed potatoes and watercrest. Mony ordered a Thai-styled salad (which was incredible, though he said he can make one even better), and a Winter Chanterelle Mushroom Pizza. We had to roll ourselves out of the restaurant afterwards and the food definitely hit the spot. To top off the dinner with dessert, we hopped into a Greek cafe on the way back for a bite of baklava, and it was exactly just that: a bite-- and what perfect a bite it was!

We met up with the guys afterwards at my pad and had some wine and cocktails before heading off to the club for the rest of the night. How I managed to drive home I have no idea. hahaa. Apparently I'm an aggressive driver. *shrug* who knew?!

Saturday we went to a Greek cafe in Cambell for brunch, and visited the bakery that Mony's friend worked at. Running out of things to do, we ended up watching Benjamin Button. While the film itself was well shot, with really great post-production, the pace was just too slow for me. And it being over two hours really tried my patience. It isn't to say I didn't enjoy the film, I just thought it was rather predictable, and it took away the emotionality of what it was intending to do. Quite honestly, I got more emotional at the preview of DisneyEarth movie for Earth Day than the entire Button film. Something about animals and nature gets me really really really emotional. No idea why, at least I haven't psychoanalyzed myself on that yet. We then drove over to Newark for a dinner party at my buddy Eugene's place. Our friends from New York were visiting, so it was a triple date of sorts. We brought some wine and starters with McManis 2006 and a Ménage à trois Merlot and herb and spiced brie spread on mini toast. Eugene's bf Paul was the chef for the night. He served raw oysters, baked oysters topped with chutney, bacon, cheese, with a lite Panco sprinkle, mussels with white wine lemongrass broth, strip steak with spring greens salad drizzled with pomegranate vinaigrette with five spice risotto. And to end with dessert, we brought red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese frosting with toffee nut crunch sprinkles. Dinner was spectacular to say the least.

I drove back to SF while Mony slept soundly in the passenger seat.

Sunday was a bit of a mess with the rain, traffic, and piece-meal plans. Those combined with a tight time schedule makes me a bit grumpy. So I'd rather not get into that. It was just unfortunate that we didn't get a chance to spend more time with my friends that were visiting, with Mony as well. I drove Mony to the airport around seven, returned the rental, and waited with him for his departure. He went into the terminal past security to get some food, then brought it out to eat with me, because there were no food places on the outside of the terminal (a flaw in the design of the airport). But the sandwich and chicken strips, no matter how expensive and how bland they tasted, just that we shared it was good enough for me. Like the many times I've done so, I watched him go through the security line, onward to his gate, blew him a kiss, and exited the airport to go home. And I felt the heartstrings pulled tightly until we see each other again.

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I should really start remembering to take photos of the food I eat...

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Friday, February 06, 2009

I mean I really think you like me...



This is my ukulele cover of First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes. The original is one of my favorites by Bright Eyes. It's a song deserving of a hug, and really good warm hug. Conor Oberst has this defeated, drunken, shaken, saddened voice that makes me feel sorry for him. When I found the chords to the song, I was ecstatic to learn it, but was surprised so many people already covered it on youtube. hahaha. Spontaneous collective consciousness? But anyway, there's a lot of good covers out there too, way better than my meek attempt.

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Two of the larger design/effect houses closed this past week. It shakes up all those in the design field here in the bay. With a design staff up in the hundreds being let go, the market will be flooded with creatives trying to get jobs and freelance gigs, and most likely for lowered price. This affects how projects are handled, produced, and ultimately will trickle down to changes in the way our company works.

I just had my annual review today. I am thankful that I wasn't let go. With the current state of the global economy, I can feel the tension and anxiety in everything I come across. From coffee shops to corporate offices. All our lives will change because of it, and it's only a matter of time.

Even the heavenly bodies say so. Pluto transitioned from idealistic Sagitarius to conservative and practical Capricorn in November 2008. Pluto rules death and rebirth, breaking down of institutions and structure for new beginnings. With it in realistic Capricorn, we'll see lots of institutional changes, lifestyle changes, governmental shifts towards a more conservative structure. Practicality, stability, and reality are some of the key traits of Capricorn, and we can expect life in general to steer that way. It will stay that way until 2024, a sixteen year journey. Hopefully when Uranus square Pluto in Capricorn in 2012 the upheaval won't be too damaging, so hold on tight.

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Mario Kart Love Song



Dedicated to Mony. Happy early Valentines!

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The original Mario Kart Love Song by Sam Hart can be viewed here.

Monday, February 02, 2009

Tips for better life

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
I walk everyday to and from the Muni station to work and home, that's a minimum.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
I lie in silence for 10mins before I get up in the morning, and sit in silence when I get home from work everyday.

3. Sleep for 7 hours.
I have trouble regulating this, still working on it.

4. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
My energy level fluctuates, so I can't guarantee it all the time, I'm pretty enthusiastic about most things, but I have limits, and I'm always empathetic to all things.

5. Play more games.
If video games, I play when I have down time, but mostly I play when I'm with M or with friends.

6. Read more books than you did the previous year.
I read on the Muni whatever chance I get. though the amount of which I finish is determined by the length of travel. So I actually finish books rather slowly, but I finish nonetheless.

7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
I pray every morning to Buddha before I leave the house. It's a short mantra but it does its job.

8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
I wish I can. My relatives are too far away and talking to elderly and children randomly on the street creeps them out. I suppose I can volunteer at a kindergarten or nursing home, but I haven't the time.

9. Dream more while you are awake.
This I do all the time.

10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
I have a pretty balanced diet. I rarely eat fastfood anymore, and processed foods taste bad to me.

11. Drink plenty of water.
I forget this all the time.

12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
I don't know if I make them happy, but I do interact with people long enough to see them smile. I feel ok with that.

13. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
I generally try not to, but some are just too juicy not to pass up. But all in jest and not for harm.

14. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
I try my best to move on, and have done well in doing so. But sometimes its the other people in the past that won't let go.

15. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
This is easier said than done, and often times hard remember to do. When I get caught up in the situation, it's difficult to step out and assess.

16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
I realized this when I was in high school. I look forward to all life has to teach me.

17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
Mom taught me to eat well for breakfast, eat lots during lunch, but eat little for dinner.

18. Smile and laugh more.
I'm working on it.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
I don't hate. I'd rather ignore.

20. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
I've been too serious all my life, I'm trying not to be too serious.

21. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
I don't argue, I discuss.

22. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
Again, I've made peace with the past, but the past hasn't made peace with me.

23. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don’t compare your partner with others.
No one knows what my journey is like either, so neither should they judge me.

24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
Agreed.

25. Forgive everyone for everything.
I've forgiven everything but have not forgotten.

26. What other people think of you is none of your business.
To some degree it is, but I'm trying not to let it get to me.

27. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
Everything will change, given enough time.

28. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Friends are everything to me, the extension to my family. We are social creatures, we rely on each other to exist.

29. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
I'm still working on the purging process.

30. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
Mom taught me this when I was very little.

31. The best is yet to come.
I sure hope so.

32. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
Even if I show up late.

33. Do the right thing!
Though sometimes right or wrong are subjective. But generally those lines are pretty obvious.

34. Call your family often.
I try. At least once every week.

35. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
My inner most is 5 years old.

36. Each day give something good to others.
Even if it's a good job.

37. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
I often overextend myself for others' sakes, but I'm learning to use more discretion and moderation.

38. Share this with someone you care about.
Already sharing it with the world on this blog.

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Sunday, February 01, 2009

the hours we are separate...

I still can't get used to seeing him off. The sentimentality never goes away. It's been more than a dozen times we see each other off, and though we no longer get emotional over us leaving one or the other, the tug of heart strings just always makes my heart ache.

And though I'll be flying down to see him next week. Time just doesn't go fast enough that the week feels like eternity. We both want to live together, start our life together as partners. That possibility is within reach yet still so uncertain.

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