quiet comforts

This song is so cute! And she is so cute! And wow only using the cellphone dings!

25 Random Facts

1. I was born at a re-education camp in XinJiang, China (in Urumqi) during the Mao regime and lived there till I was 4 years old before Mao died and the people liberated.
2. At one point when I was young, I spoke 4 different dialects of Chinese (Mandarin, Cantononese, Toisan, Shanghainese)
3. My first boy crush was when I was 5 years old, first girl crush was when I was 9.
Boy crushes eventually beat out girl crushes.
4. All the schools I've attended since preschool were art-related.
5. My older brother and I used to fist-fight. He was the one with the muscles and size, but I was the one with bony knuckles, so I'd always win.
6. I have conflicting internal dialogues, but who doesn't?
7. The opposing argument in my head is always so convincing. That explains my indecisiveness.
8. I need emotional release at least once a year, or else random triggers get me bawling at the most inopportune of moments.
9. I think I'm inconsistent, only at certain things, sometimes come off as flighty or flaky.
10. I have trouble differentiating what I think, what I feel, and what I believe... and a lot of the times what I think and feel and believe are different from each other.
11. I sleep best on my stomach. I have nightmare if I sleep on my back. ALWAYS.
12. I'm a chronic cuddler.
13. I find the snoring or heavy breathing of my BF next to me comforting. It let's me know he's still there.
14. I have abandonment issues stemming from childhood experiences.
15. My fatal flaw is being overtly accommodating to the point of losing myself.
16. I'm working on all the above inadequacies and think I'm doing rather well.
17. I like aphorisms.
18. I have an obsession with the ukulele.
19. I have an obsession with ramen (not the packaged kind).
20. If I didn't go into the art and design field, I probably would've gone into music.
21. I quote others to better express myself.
22. I really think/feel/believe that "He who loves the more is the inferior and must suffer." - Thomas Mann
23. I live for the experience, bad or good.
24. I have a secret love affair with airports.
25. "I'm not afraid of death, I just don't want to be there when it happens." Woody Allen

ukulele love

I recorded this some time last week really just for fun. But I think I might shoot a few more takes and make it into a video. I might even record a track for the singing parts for the song and post it. It's really for M, but I suppose it doesn't hurt to share it with the world. :p

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One two three four get your booty on the floor!!!

super snow bunnies

Snowboarding was quite a work out. I have muscle sores in parts of my legs that I didn't even know existed. I was limping a bit from the soreness for the entire day yesterday. Luckily I do enough upper body workouts on a normal basis that I didn't have much pain. Overall it was great fun! Though I wished we could stay longer. The cabin was a lot of fun. Nineteen people, two straight guys, one straight girl, the rest ALL gay with lots of alcohol. Perfect formula for some disaster/scandal/porno. But I digress... and to my surprise, it didn't turn out as crazy as I thought it might have. It was all rather tame, for lack of better words, except maybe the part about the jacuzzi, spin-the-bottle-in-the-hottub, and the "flashing" game.

For the most part, I spent the entire weekend with M. We were sort of inseparable, not that we want to be separated anyhow. It was my first time snowboarding, and he wanted to make sure I was ok and having a good time. Since we're both somewhat of novices, it was alright that we tag along each other the whole time. At by the end of the it, I was doing alright. At least I wasn't falling as much. At one point we both laid down on the snow after crash landing, and just looked up to the sky as the snow fluttered around us. It was really quite the perfect moment.

As I limp like a gimp back to my apartment lastnight, I felt good, and despite the pain, I felt good about everything.

2008 RECAP

I realized that despite my nagging insistence of not doing a recap entry about my past year, I should really do it for the sake of remembering what happened, but also of what I've accomplished. A checklist of life events if you will.

1. Removed myself from an unhealthy and potentially destructive relationship
2. Removed myself from an unhealthy and depressive living space
3. Made many more friends, both close and casual
4. Settled, acquainted, and warmed up to Bay Area
   
5. Went to Hawaii for no reason other than to go (alone)
6. Marched at Pride for the first time and was on TV for a second
   
7. Got better at the ukulele... much better
   
8. Two breakups
9. Finding my center and my ground again
10. Established a solid work reputation
11. Moved to another apartment
12. Skydiving!!!!!
13. Falling in love with a guy I'd want to build a life with
14. Major party-fouled and blackedout on my BF's birthday
15. Set off the fire-alarm of a jewelry store next to the bar I barfed and passed-out at of the same night of BF birthday.
    
16. Film I worked on got into several more film festivals worldwide
17. Voted for the first time in my life, for someone I really believe in
18. Cried, laughed, shouted, and danced... a lot!
    

I believe I've lived fully this past year. The fortune teller was right about the year, now in retrospect, that it was to be filled with many highs and many lows but however the outcome, I'll be exact where I need to be.

aaiff08

While we're at it, I may as well just talk about the piece. I designed this piece for the Asian American International Film Festival in New York for 2008, from initial designs to final production including the music composition.

return

it's kind of like starting over. except I saved every bit of it. and even if I didn't, I'm sure a copy of it is somehow archived somwhere on the internet. but whatever.

it's so cliché to call it a new chapter, but calling it anything would probably sound cliché anyway.

bah. whatever.

so hi again!