僕は君に待っている

this is a kind of complicated so tangled that i never thought i would get involved in. because of it, i've become something different. it's as if the world shifted, and my reality suddenly changed. i let it happen, as i always do, for the sake of new experiences. but i really hope it hasn't changed me.

i'm waiting... well, half-waiting really. because this time is different. i'm showing restraint, so much that i went the other way, waywardly to keep from idle waiting. i gave in to the otherness, and the otherness took and took and pushed and pushed, while half of me still waits...

i want to say that i will be cleansed of waywardness when all is right and when the waiting ends, and i'll be whole again. but i'm afraid of the otherness getting stronger. to a point where waiting is of no consequence.

if only you knew. if only you don't want me waiting for you anymore...

but if i don't wait, i don't know what else to do.

for always.

二人は恋人同士になれるかもしれない。でも僕は君のそばにいつまでもいるよ。