honeymood child

{}emiliana torrini

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One day I'll find my happy place,
and I ain't gonna share nothin with you 'cause you've got your own.
You've your own.

One day I'll find my happy place,
and I'm determined that I'm never gonna find my way back out.
My way back out.

I know it lies somewhere beyond the clouds and open air
My heart is stopping, but I don't care.
I know that I'll be there...

One day, I'll find my happy place.
And maybe then I'll find a person who can curl up in my heart.
In my heart.

One day, I'll find my happy place.
And I'll forget that I was ever in a world that fell apart.
Fell apart.

I know it lies somewhere beyond the clouds and open air.
My heart is stopping, I don't care.
I know that I'll be there.

One step at a time, I climb to the highest point.
I know that if I try, I'll fly so high, you won't believe
what I can do, it's true.
My happy place is waiting in the sky
and I can meet you there.

One day, I'll find my happy place.
And now you know the truth about me and I take none of it back.
Take nothing back.

One day, I'll find my happy place.
But for today I'll just imagine what it feels like to be there...

-h.p.mendoza

skool daze

It's been nearly 4 years since I graduated. I always thought that I'd go back some day to continue my studies, either in design or otherwise more academic endeavors. The past few years, however, have been dedicated solely to working and dealing with life. It's interesting that I've never had a campus life, nor did I have a collegiate social experience. SVA being a conservatory was structured for career preparation rather than well... the scholarly pursuits. So since I got out of high school life has already begun. Anyway, my point is, I'll soon be going to school again, but only for a class. It's more of a technical buffer than a course or degree. I've been enrolled into NYU's Continuing Ed's Maya I: 3D Modeling and Animation. FREE!!! Paid for by my firm. Apparently the bossman really values my presence and is willing to make an investment on me. Hah! Gotta love free education.

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Today's doodle.

sufjan hottie stevens

I got the album from a friend awhile back and loved the music, loved the voice, loved the lyrics... but never did I bothered looking him up. Guess I got so comfortable with the way he sounded to really care about what he looked like. But HOT DAMN!! Sufjan is gorgeous!!! And those eyes, holy god!! Serenade me!!!!!!!!!

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The signs do point to him being... questionable in the gay department... I mean, look at him! So soft, and pretty, and in need of a hug. More than that, the evidents presented here are more than enough to place him along with openly gay indie musicians like Final Fantasy's Owen Pallet

wahbabies

I've been on a roll with drawing crying babies for some odd reason. They're just easy and fun to draw I guess, much easier than crying adults no doubt. I've been doing "dailies" as of late, sized 10"x10" so that they can be printed and bound into a book for future illustration collection for either portfolio or keepsake. In any case, this is a good thing. I haven't done art in a long time. The creative juices-a-flowin'.

and... onward

this blog is starting to get too depressing. No wait, it already is depressing. Enough of that. Time to revamp. This blogspot was initially created because I needed another outlet for the thoughts I deemed too personal, or too revealing for the audiences that I'd acquired from previous years. But it seems as if I'm constantly changing blogs. It used to be "Shifting Places" then two years later, it became "Shifting Again" and after another breakup, I moved to xanga giving into the community based comforts of conformity, I became "Kumo9." And now, years from the day I started making my first posts, in the same office I made that very first post, I've come full circle; I came back to blogger, with a new name, and a new vision, new passions, new stories.

Hopefully a new look too. This template is so plain, so average, and so... mundane.

More later...

on second thought...

我懷議我是喜歡他的生活方式，不是他本人。人也還沒見，怎麼可喜歡上他呢？？發神精。

誰も知らない。

每一次开始喜欢一个人的时候， 自己重是变成一个发狂一样的人。

でもあの男がとても好きです。

好了， 够了， 不要再找了。 一个不存在的人是永远找不到的。